O Heer!

O Heer, blijf toch niet vragen.
Gij weet dat ik U haat,
dat ik geen kruis wil dragen,
niet gaan waarheen Gij gaat.
O Heer, blijf toch niet vragen.

O Heer, heb mededogen.
Vraag toch niet weer. Gij weet
dat ik U steeds verloochen,
dat ik U steeds vergeet.
O Heer, heb mededogen.

Gij weet toch alles, Here.
Ik heb U lief. Gij weet:
liefde zal mij verteren,
zelfs als ik U vergeet.
Gij weet toch alles, Here.
(Uit: Gezang 83, LvdK)

Hoor!

Gedenk niet meer het kwaad van voorgeslachten.
Zie, hoe wij uw barmhartigheid verwachten.
God van ons heil, wij zijn verzwakt door lijden.
Het geldt uw eer, kom spoedig ons bevrijden.
Verzoen het grote kwaad / dat ons voor ogen staat,
laat U door ons verbidden.
Het geldt uw naam, o God, / wanneer de heiden spot:
Is God niet in hun midden?
(Psalm 79, 5 GK)

Just wond'ring why...

Geen gevoel meer om te delen

ik heb alles weggegeven

aan de mensen die nooit echt

hebben geluisterd

Niemand om op terug te vallen

ik kan slechts mijn vuisten ballen

en slaan tegen de leegte om mij heen

Maar U, U kent mij echt

en U weet waar ik doorheen ga

en toch grijpt u niet in?

U hebt toch beloofd,

me te dragen door het water?

Kunt u dan niet zien dat ik verdrink?

Ik ben moe van al het bidden

Ik heb geen kracht om nog te schreeuwen

En van U heb ik al tijden

niets gehoord

Dus nu schreeuw ik zonder woorden

maar de klanken gaan verloren

in de stilte die mijn leven nu omgeeft

Maar U, U kent mij echt

en U weet waar ik doorheen ga

en toch grijpt U niet in?

U hebt toch beloofd

me te dragen door het water?

Kunt U dan niet zien dat ik verdrink?

Geen gevoel meer om te delen

Ik heb alles weggegeven

maar diep van binnen weet ik dat U luistert...

(Waar bent U? - Matthijn Buwalda)

Show me!

Here I am, Lord, and I’m drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You’ve cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I’ve never sinned
But today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
‘Cause I can’t bear to see the man I’ve been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
‘Cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I’m in
Today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You’ve washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can’t live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I‘m not holding on to You, but You’re holding on to me
You’re holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don’t have to see the man I’ve been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
‘Cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other

(East to West - Casting Crowns)

Trying?

Careless, I am reckless
I’m a wrong-way-travelin’-slowly-unraveling shell of a man
Burnt out, I’m so numb now
That the fire’s just an ember way down in the corner of my cold, cold heart

Lord, this time I’ll make it right, here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done, my heart is broken as I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Here at the altar, oh my world so black and white
How could I ever falter
What You’ve shown me to be right

I’m trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me
Jesus, I’m trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me

(The altar and the door - Casting Crowns)

© 2007 My Refuge Music/Club Zoo Music/SWECS Music (BMI) (admin. by EMI CMG Publishing)~Ephesians 6:7-10 / Romans 7:15-20 / Isaiah 53:6 / Isaiah 64:5-6 / 2 Timothy 2:13 / Psalm 14:1-3 / Psalm 53:1-3 / Romans 3:9-12, 21-26 / Mark 9:23-24~Written by Mark Hall

Why?

The very things I hate, I end up doing,
The things I want to do, I just don't do.
Lord it seems do sad, why am I so bad?
When in my heart I only want to be like you.

The very ones I love I end up hurting,
The ones I want to help I pass right by.
Now I want to be, finally set free
The grace you've shown, the love I've known,
Please let it shine through me.

I want to love them, the way you do,
I want to serve them, by serving you.

Lord how I know your tender heart must be broken,
By all those unkept promises I've made,
The question still prevails, please take away the doubt,
About how you forgive, and still you live inside when I fail.

I want to love them all, the way you do,
I want to serve them,  by serving you.
I want to be like you; Jesus I do.

I want to love them all, the way you do,
I want to serve them,  by serving you.

(Romans VII - Keith Green)

While you were sleeping

Oh little town of Bethlehem
Looks like another silent night
Above your deep and dreamless sleep
A giant star lights up the sky
And while you're lying in the dark
There shines an everlasting light
For the King has left His throne
And is sleeping in a manger tonight, tonight

Oh Bethlehem, what you have missed while you were sleeping
For God became a man
And stepped into your world today
Oh Bethlehem, you will go down in history
As a city with no room for its King
While you were sleeping
While you were sleeping

Oh little town of Jerusalem
Looks like another silent night
The Father gave His only Son
The Way, the Truth, the Life had come
But there was no room for Him in the world He came to save

Jerusalem, what you have missed while you were sleeping
The Savior of the world is dying on your cross today
Jerusalem, you will go down in history
As a city with no room for its King
While you were sleeping
While you were sleeping

United States of America
Looks like another silent night
As we're sung to sleep by philosophies
That save the trees and kill the children
And while we're lying in the dark
There's a shout heard 'cross the eastern sky
For the Bridegroom has returned
And has carried His bride away in the night, in the night

America, what will we miss while we are sleeping
Will Jesus come again
And leave us slumbering where we lay
America, will we go down in history
As a nation with no room for its King
Will we be sleeping
Will we be sleeping

United States of America
Looks like another silent night

(Casting Crowns)